It's a good day

2 Corinthians 4:17-18  For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.  So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen.  For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. 

This verse seems very appropriate for me right now.  I look  back at the past few years and all the ups and downs and realize just how far spiritually I have come.  I used say the words that I had faith, that I believed that God would take care of me, my family.  I tried to will myself to believe those words.  I remember asking God to mold me into the type of human being that he would have me to be.  Little did realize that I would have to experience some really trying times.  But today as with everyday I realize how hard work does pay off, that having even a little bit of FAITH really goes a long way.  My paycheck was 4x as much as I thought it would be....I am making arrangements with the creditors, and I am even getting extra hours at work.  And even though it is only money, it does cause so much stress in the household.  Today I truly believe in the words that God provides for my family for today...tomorrow will take care of itself.  God is good always and in everything for those who truly believe in the unseen.  Thank you God!

Also, I talked to my biggest boy last night because I haven't seen him on line and wanted to make sure he was ok.  He said he had met a girl.  And of course being the wonderful mother I am I said is she sane?  He said, yes mom she is very nice.  This kid is the biggest sweetheart, and he wears his heart on his sleeve.  Not much dating experience, well yeah dating but no girlfriend yet.  He usually picks the really needy crazy girls so hopefully he can get to know this one and have some fun (good clean kind hopefully! =) ). 

Life is pretty darned good here, worrying about how we are going to pay our bills is FINALLY getting less of an emotional issue with me, and more of a take one step at a time issue and having the faith to truly believe.  God is good all the time and for that I am grateful!  Love you all....Rose

Wow I just realized I haven't been here since Saturday!  My husband has been greedy with his time with me.  Makes me feel guilty if I am up here on the computer.  Saturday we went to the Sandwich Fair which is one of the biggest country fairs in Illinois.  It was so fun just to walk around and see all the sites and smells. AND to eat the foot long corndogs and drink the lemon shake ups.  Wouldn't be the Fair without them.  We spent a lot of time looking through the campers.  Then we came across Mark's kids.  They were there with my stepson's future in-laws.  It was a very enjoyable day.  Sunday we took the bike out to see my middle kid.  We caught up with him as he was leaving work.  He was his normal charming cranky self.  Whining about his car insurance.  So many problems for such a young man.  He shares an apartment with 3 other guys and it's located in the same block as the fraternities.  And there must of been a heck of party going on that weekend.  Dumpsters overflowing...wow college and beer...glad my kid doesn't have much time on his hands.  Plus his girlfriend will keep watch over him.  She is very anti drinking.  One less thing I have to think about. 

 The weekend was very good, and yesterday was a normal Monday except hot and I worked all day.  We are trying here at home to get the family together for meals, so far we made it last night.  Hopefully it will happen again tonight, but I forgot how much my husband cannot resist "picking" at my stepson's eating habits...brought back all the dinners of times past except with 5 less BIG boys!  Much calmer mealtimes.  I wonder how I did it back them feeding all those kids. 

Today though I am really tired.  I drove by one of my streets when I was doing my grade school route, luckily I was able to get turned around, but I ticked of a guy in Mustang.  He proceeded to let me know of his rage by blasting his horn at me.  I think he was one of my neighbors.  The guy's kind of a jerk anyway.  In times like that ... I always bless the person and say, "go in peace" and carry on.

I managed a quick nap a while ago, but I still feel sort of out of it.  I'll go take some vitamins maybe that will help.  Have a good day!  rose

September 11

 

Like must people I remember exactly what and where I was on September 11.  I finished my paper route, and on that day (it was a Tuesday), I had 2000 more free papers to throw (paper boy phrase).  I wasn't looking forward to it...it was hard work and at that time my sleep was so crazy and off.  I decided to take a quick nap on the couch, I always left the TV on.  Hubby called and told me to turn on the TV because there had been a plane crash.  I saw the helicopter circling the towers and saw the gapping hole in the building.  My first thought was what the heck happened that pilot that he got so lost??  I thought the plane was like a little plane, never occurred to me to be a jet.  Then I thought how are the firemen going to get their hoses that high to put the fire out.  When the second one hit I was in shock....then the rest ... it was too much for me to understand.  And when the 1st tower fell all I could think of ... one is going to fall no fireman don't go back the other too.  My daughter called me from school she had forgotten something so I asked her if she knew what was happening and of course she said "huh what?".  I said never mind....took her the item.  Then I called my boy at college and told him to be careful..college kids can be stupid at these times.  After some kids there burned couchs and dumpster after a basketball game, I was afraid of what this would cause them to do.  His college has a wide variety of backgrounds, and some kids can be so judgmental.  I just didn't want my kid to get in anybody's crossfire, or if he was going to stick up for somebody to be careful.  It reminded me of the school shootings.  I also told my kids don't be heros.  Just be careful.

After that the powers that be at the paper decided that they needed to put out a special "wrap around" for the daily paper.  So I got to see the news first and it still didn't sink in.  I took the papers to a couple of gas stations and one of the owners was of Eastern decent.  Nice people...I told hem I hoped people were kind to them...as you know how some people can be so judgemental in times like this...

After that I remember the TV was straight 9-1-1 news ALL day ALL night.  You could not escape it.  I cried many tears for these poor people, for our country.  Living in the Midwest though I felt so far away from the actual event.  I knew no one that died, I didn't even know anyone that was directly effected.  But as an American I was effected.  Our country suffered a great wake up call.  I still do not see anything different today.  People still treat each other badly, they still don't think this can happen to them.  They still don't realize how much we are hated for being who we are.  There are days I still act like a stupid human being and just go through the motions of life.  I think as humans we are wired that way...to be self centered and self serving.  But in a crisis most of us jump to the call and help each other.  Maybe that is how we are wired.  I don't know, I'd like to think that I am different because of 9-1-1, I know I value my family more.  I realize how fragile life is and in a blink it's gone.  This thing that happened makes your realize how fleeting life is.  How in a instant everything can change.    When it's your time to go to God, it's your time.  Let's try to be a little nicer to others, for me I need to be a little nicer to me.  And give myself a break, then I can share myself with others and make things a little easier for the people around me.  Make this a great weekend. 

 

 

Today would have been a perfectly wonderful day had I just not come home.  I really wanted to go out to eat...we have some of those gift cards and I just wanted to go out...it's been a long week ... BUT when I called home Mark's like, "I'd have to take a shower and shave."  Which in men speak means I don't want to.  I said fine, finished up at work went into the office and listened to this girl Jody get yelled at by one of the bosses.  Jody is a little high strung and she and the boss clash so I think they just clashed together...a fine ending to a long week at the transportation department.  On a high note, all the principals agreed we are doing a fine job.  Great.  Also, if I wanted to get into a one upmanship with the hubby, last Friday I was tired, in sweats and falling asleep and just because his kid wanted to out to eat at 8 pm we went...I didn't even get ask if I want to...very aggravating...BUT I was good and never mentioned this...why start a fight...

So I come home and all I here is, Liz did this, liz didn't do that...blah blah...so I say, "you know what I just really don't want to talk to you tonight."  So we didn't and he went to bed at 8:30.  Ah silence it won't last though...Mark can never last...but at least I didn't have to listen the constant complaining about MY kids...we learned along time ago in a remarriage situation it's impossible to be fair...so we aren't ( and anybody who pretends to do it is nuts or lying) .... it's just that since my kids are less likely to get into trouble they get "picked" on for all the little stuff and held to a higher standard by dear old hubby.  Oh well, I signed onto this so it's what I get...

Also, daughter drove at school today and she did excellent...so happy, she said her teacher was really good, which is good for $100 he better be good.  My instincts were better to get the teacher to get her started, then she will be better off driving with me. 

Not much else going on ... she need to gripe a bit...

I'm tired...but happy

Wow am I tired.  I worked most of the day...which will be good for the pay check...but whew am I tired.  Hubby called the bank today and they are extending our note for his semi truck...which buys us some time.  His pay check will cover most of the pressing bills, and with me back, we'll get caught up.  Being broke and struggling really makes you look at your life and what's important...I vote people!  They are the most important!  And besides God is so good, He has saw to it that my most important bills are being paid.  The rest...will get taken care of.  My everlasting soul is much more important AND my happiness on this planet...I finally believe that God makes ALL things work for good for  those who love Him.  I promise!  I am tired but satisified.  Trust me in this we may not know what is in store for us, and we may not like it...but everything does work out...and they work out without any bells and whistles...just a nice simple calm...I love that feeling...God's everylasting love for me...I love you guys have a great evening!  Rose

goofing around....when i have a house to vacuum

it's a good thing i have a job outside the house or i would spend alllllll day on this stupid computer...looking for goofy animated graphics...you'd think i had a life?????  but it is fun!

not much new here...work is the same, all the poor new people are riding with other new people getting lost and having their buses act up.  but hey it'll make "men" out of 'em.  and at least they will know the area that way.  poor people i try and help ... hopefully the group will get the line up right at the high school yesterday it was a mess and everybodies calling on the radio, where do i go???.  yesterday a girl i knew from outside work didn't know she had to be like 2nd in line at the junior high so these drivers are calling her number on the radio wanting to know where she's at...she says, "i am coming, i am at the light", then some other goof ball calls her again, she says the same thing...then to top it off another nut calls her again, by then she's screaming in the mike, "I"M COMING!!!!!", she was upset...so she says to me, "and i thought truckdriver's were crybabies", because she used to drive a semi dump. ha!  no way bus drivers hands down are the biggest group of cry babies!, but they can't help it most of us are retired too young, or too old to work anywhere else, or housewifes and we ALL come by it honestly. :) oh well makes for an exciting day right?  brrrrrrrrrrr  it's cold here again.  i really need to find a warmer climate to live in....california?????  have a great day guys!  rose!~bus #30...

What the heck did Florida do to tick off the weather???

What in the world did Florida do to merit such weather???  I mean didn't Charlie just blast through there???  My area of the world we get storms, tornadoes, rain, hail, snow, but man nothing like the wrath of Mother Nature!  My Father told me that he is lucky he didn't sell his house or he would have been in Charie's path...wow!  I feel so bad for these poor folks!   

Things are normal here, talked the college boys and seems Big Purdue boy had a better weekend.  Seems one of his old heart throbs came to visit...nothing like the attention of a cute girl to perk a guy up.  The other kid Working Junior College boy seems to be doing a-ok too.  BUT, Stepson who needs to get his act together came home from of course his old haunts and reported he dodged being taken to jail with his old pals.  Seems 2 of them are Jr Alcoholics and the other one has no brains.  No brains threw a firecracker in an elevator at Drunk boy's apartment complex.  The kid wasn't supposed to be there anyway because he had already done something in the past to ban him.  The police were called and all the lecturing we gave Dale over the past few months must have sunk in because he actually was honest with the police officers.  He had firecrackers but said he didn't do the deed, and he gave the police all the fireworks he had in his truck.  No brains boy admitted he did the firework stunt.  The police believed my stepson, but his pals weren't so lucky...all of them are in jail.  His old friend who has a very bad drinking problem (at 17) has been in a lot of trouble in the past and will problem be sent away.  His father is a drinker and lets this kid do whatever he wants.  Which drives me nuts!  How can a kid guess at how to do things in life, if his example is so rotten, which explains why the kid is the way he is!  I guess Mark and I aren't such jerks afterall...ahhh lifes lessons in action...I love it when all my nagging actually has an outcome in my favor...and at least my goofy kid knows enough to stay out of trouble, now if I can just get him to avoid these kids all together.  Which shouldn't been a problem now that they will be "doing time".  Kids!Thank God they have a guardian angel looking out after them!  Gotta go...it's gorgeous outside and me 2 doggies are looking to be walked!  Love you all.....rose