i am sissy

Picked up the kids on Sunday night.  Had a fun evening and managed to get them to bed pretty early.  I think they are finally used to our house and checked out most of the place that they know they are able to go.  The both are so funny.  Jacob talked none stop about Monster trucks.  We have 2 trucks here along with a bunch of match box cars.  He likes to line them up and jump them like he sees on TV or like Saturday real life.  Until baby monster Dakota comes and walks all over them.  Oh boy.  But such is the life of siblings.  We that had them all went through it.  

On Monday morning I woke up to bring Dakota down stairs to get him a drink.  I was holding him and had a huge dizzy spell.  I broke out in a cold sweat.  I had to call out to Mark and then had to sit down.  I ended up being talked into (by Mark) calling off work today.  I have 31 sick days, so I do have them available.  But it's so weird to me with this job to call in.  I NEVER do that!  Actually I never have called in sick in the 3 years I've been there.  I took off for my surgery (2 days), my son's surgery (1 day) and the funeral.  I feel ok, but the whole dizzy thing sorta freaked me out.  I am sure it has to do with all the germs and bugs that have been going around lately.  Being locked up in a closed bus with the world's biggest germ carriers would do that.  But I am so overly posessive with my bus, (I know you all know THAT!), my kids and route, that it feels weird to not be there.  Plus the dispatcher always makes it sound like you are putting her out when you call in.  Oh well, enough of that talk, I am going to finish up on here and go rest.  By tomorrow hopefully I will be good as new!  Especially since it's going to be 40's, and I only work my am and pm routes on Wednesdays.

Have a great day!

wow was i out of it!

 

Wow I must of been totally out of it yesterday!  First I get to work and hear how my routes went fine, not a hitch.  My bus tells me otherwise.  There was a plastic piece that fit over some wiring that had been broken off, no biggie I think.  Something went wrong with my stop sign and eight way system and the service door, which I had just had all the wiring replaced last month including a new stop sign.  Before that my door rusted off the bus so they replaced it with a brand new one, it's hard to close the door, but I only weigh 120 pounds and if I can close it anybody can do it without a struggle.  Then I get to my elementary kids and they are so happy to see me.  Seems the poor driver took a wrong turn, was 20 minutes late and it was pouring rain.  The afternoon guy who tends to be alittle out there anyway, dropped them off at the wrong stops, and drove too fast, this in a downpour.  Sub drivers do have it rough, they are thrown in first thing in the morning, and expected to a good job.  My route is confusing anyway.  Also the guy let them listen to the radio which is a huge 'no, no'.  No radio's while kids are on board because they distract the driver, and it's hard to hear traffic, trains, etc.  Then I hear that my normally naughty boy for me was hopping seats and the bus driver didn't do anything about it.  So he and I had a talk, I asked him to be good because I was going to be gone.  I guess 'good' is relative, especially to an 8 year old.  I do have a planned day off in April, I'll be drawing up a map for that.  My bus is my pride and joy, it may be old, but I've had it for 2 years.  I know every rattle, groan, and drip.  Makes me angry when some else monkeys with it for no reason. 

Then last night when we were out I realized that I didn't plug my bus in.  We have to plug our buses in every night to keep the engine block warm so it will start easier.  So I figure no worries I'll go this morning right after I drop off Liz for play practice.  The bus isn't going anywhere until Tuesday morning anyway.  So I get to work and no bus!  It's not parked in the normal 30 spot.  It's -6 outside with -25 wind chills, I look around and can't find it.  Maybe it's in the shop.  One of our mechanics is at base making sure everybody can start their buses for the sports trips today.  He told me he'd look for it and plug it in if it's not already down.  Maybe it's mad at me for leaving it and ran away.  Maybe it went to the Monster truck show with my grandson!

Last night when I made my journal entry I had trouble with my computer, I have a bad driver and once and while this thing will just turn off.  Either AOL or my computer saved my entry four times!  Oh well, my beautiful babies got to be shown four times, right?!!!

So today I am going to do some baby proofing, and get another gate to block off parts of my house.  It is no day to be outside.  It's beautiful blue skies, but brrrrrrrrr cold!

But this cold snap will be over by tomorrow, thankfully!  My natural gas bill is high enough. 

We are supposed to be in the 30's by Monday.  I am so ready for winter to be over.

I have tulips that I had brought inside a month ago and put them in a pot by a sunny window.  They are beginning to bloom.  They didn't get warm enough though because the are only about 6 inches tall rather than 14 inches tall.  They are pretty though.  Yellow with red stripes.  COME ON SPRING!

 

Stay warm!

 

Guess who's coming to spend the night with 'a-ma' Sunday night???

This two dolls!

"a-ma, you wanna play playdough?"

"can I go see dada??"

We saw the boys this evening and Dakota is back to his old naughty self!  Jacob is excited because he is going to Monster trucks with his daddy tomorrow.  I am off Monday so we are keeping the boys until Monday night. 

Tracey had to repeatly explain to Jacob when Saturday (monster trucks) was and when Sunday (Grandma Rose day) was.  So hard for a two year old!

YEA!!! baby time~

Guess who's coming to spend the night with 'a-ma' Sunday night???

This two dolls!

"a-ma, you wanna play playdough?"

"can I go see dada??"

We saw the boys this evening and Dakota is back to his old naughty self!  Jacob is excited because he is going to Monster trucks with his daddy tomorrow.  I am off Monday so we are keeping the boys until Monday night. 

Tracey had to repeatly explain to Jacob when Saturday (monster trucks) was and when Sunday (Grandma Rose day) was.  So hard for a two year old!

YEA!!! baby time~

Guess who's coming to spend the night with 'a-ma' Sunday night???

This two dolls!

"a-ma, you wanna play playdough?"

"can I go see dada??"

We saw the boys this evening and Dakota is back to his old naughty self!  Jacob is excited because he is going to Monster trucks with his daddy tomorrow.  I am off Monday so we are keeping the boys until Monday night. 

Tracey had to repeatly explain to Jacob when Saturday (monster trucks) was and when Sunday (Grandma Rose day) was.  So hard for a two year old!

YEA!!! baby time~

family

My mother died in April of 1999.  She was the glue that held my family together.  I have three younger brothers.  She had four children in five years and started having babies at the age of 17, which is the same age as my daughter.  So much for a young girl to handle.  Sure she had my father, but back in those days, the woman did all the work.

No matter what we all knew we had our mother to turn to when this world got to crazy.  She was a rock.  A housewife who's only job ever was to be our mother.  As I grew up and became a mother myself I began to see my mother differently.  At the time I used to see her as a weak person, she was very high strung, smoked too much and drank too much wine every single night.  But her personality never, ever changed, she was always the same loving woman.  always.  Even after she quit all her vices and still five years later developed lung cancer. She was strong, and never complained.  After her death we no longer had her to keep us connected.  We all got caught up in life.

So today when my brother and his family had the funeral for little Tyson, I was happy to see all of my family together.  Ever since my mother's death we have gone on with our lives, dealing with the daily business of raising families, working and paying the bills.

It took a sad event to bring us back together again.  Don't get me wrong, I see my brothers here and there, Matt's wedding, 2 of the came, Tim's graduation, 1 of them came.  But it's not the same as all of us being together.

It was a glorious reunion.  Time stood still and it felt like only yesterday that we had last seen each other.  My own children, all three of them came today also.  They saw that my brothers and I had been a part for so long.  They vowed to never let life get in the way of spending time together.  I hope they keep that promise.

When the world gets rough, family is the one thing I have always known I could count on.  And after today I am going to be around more, make more time, be less consumed by my own little world.  Get reaquinted with my nieces and nephews, my brothers, my family.

The funeral was sad, my brother's friends from high school were there.  It's as if when bad things happen, the troops come in and hold us up.  It was wonderful.  His church had a luncheon afterward, you know the type with fruit salad, potatoe salad, hot beef and yellow cake.  Made things easier, safer, a place to talk and reflect, plan our future.  We said goodbye to little Tyson, who always will be in our hearts.  Right now there's a little boy named Rylan who is getting stronger, healthier who will be welcomed with open arms to his wonderful now more grateful family.

Happy Valentines Day!

Happy Valentines day to all my sweeties!  

Things are ok around here.  Mark's been working which is great for this time of year when he usually is still laid off.  He does have a head cold like everybody else, but he's a trooper going to work with only a little whining. 

My poor kids on the bus are all chapped where I can tell they have been rubbing their little noses.  They come back all snotty and runny.  Poor things.  I was treated to some sweet Valentines too.  They are basically sweet kids who try really hard to please me.

At least the elementary kids.

My girl on my junior high route is suspended for 2 weeks.  Her sister tried to get lippy with me blaming me for her being off, I told her simply that she did it to herself and if she wanted to she could join her.  That made quiet down.  The rest are still not behaving and not listening and not believing that they could lose their ride too.  They will believe when they see their own name on a conduct report. 

My nephew's funeral is Thursday and I am taking off the whole day.  I am basically all my brother has from his childhood as my dad is in Florida, my mom is dead, and my two younger brothers are pretty clueless.  I am a believer in family.  They need my support.

Otherwise I am going to enjoy my candy holiday and leave you with a HAPPY SWEETIE DAY!

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