Saturday

Yeah!  It's Saturday, kind-a cloudy, but my mood isn't.  Went with Eric (19) to the Ford dealer and after his month long search he finally got a car, it's a 2005 Focus and he got it all on his own!  No co-signer!  He had the downpayment and everything.  I am so proud of him.  He didn't do well last year in college, didn't pass and now is going to take come junior college classes, live in a apartment that he had set up before he realized he wasn't going back to NIU, so it's junior college, it's a long story.  His real dad (we divorced when he was a baby)  has always given both him and Tim whatever they wanted,  now now he wants to play hardball and put conditions on things...but I am his mother, and Eric is nearly a man...and he and his father will have to work all this out.  I will be supportive, but I can't do everything...I really am having an easier time letting go...at least for today.  Otherwise we have a graduation party to go to this afternoon and Mark is working until 3:00.  So I need to get my stuff done this morning instead of 5 minutes before he gets home like I ususally do!  We are going to try and spend the night at the camper.  The graduation party is Mark's son Matt's girlfriend.  I like Brandy, had a hard time with her when they were dating in high school, but now she is a college grad and grown up she appreciates me more.  She didn't like the fact that I had rules.  Funny now that's what she likes about me now!  She has a hard time with Mark's ex wife, so that makes it easier on me.  Mark's ex loves to put on a show, and I am not saying I am perfect but I do try to let things go...yeah right, it takes a long time for me to let things go, but at least I have a clue!  Oh well I signed on to this when I married Mark so I guess I will be dealing with this forever as the boys all are beginning to grow up and have families.  At least I know I'll be able to spend time with Matt and Brandy's kids when they get married and have them, because Brandy likes me...ah life...doesn't get better than this.

Here's my new thought process...affirmations...I am having ALL my needs met today...I am healthy, my family is too, I am well off spiritually, mentally, physically, financially, I am right where I need to be...I am loved!!  And I love my family and I will make sure they ALL know it by my thoughts, deeds and actions.  AND most of all God loves me.  AMEN!  Here's to an awesome day!