This picture is sort a cheering me up...sort of.
I got conned by the "fake" aol email. I should know better this happened when I first got aol. But I feel for it so now I have to call my bank tomorrow and cancel my debit card. The only person who knows how to handle such matters wasn't in today (Wednesday, small bank). Lucky for me I only had 9 dollars in my account. It sucks to be poor and stupid. J/K, I am not stupid just VERY tired. Not physically just emotionally. I feel like I have had the crap beat out of my spirit. I try and say all sorts of positive things, read spiritual material, pray, talk to nice people, write, count my blessings, etc. But I feel like I am failing this test. My husband isn't working again tomorrow. And although he worked Monday, the rest of the week doesn't look good either, because of the weather forecast. I just feel so you know unfaithful...I've been here a thousand times before...pissed off at God because I can't control my situation. My husband's check this week was to go for Christmas. I know, I know keep the faith, this will make you stronger, everything will work out blah blah blah. But I have a huge Mortgage payment due at the end of the month and the rest of the pay checks this month have to go to that.
I do know that I will get through all this...I know that God has always been there to fight my inner demons. But I am just so tired...so tonight I will rest....God will find a way...and everything truly will be alright..
Thanks for listening
you guys truly understand.
<3
Wednesday, December 8, 2004
Very bummed out
This picture is sort a cheering me up...sort of.
I got conned by the "fake" aol email. I should know better this happened when I first got aol. But I feel for it so now I have to call my bank tomorrow and cancel my debit card. The only person who knows how to handle such matters wasn't in today (Wednesday, small bank). Lucky for me I only had 9 dollars in my account. It sucks to be poor and stupid. J/K, I am not stupid just VERY tired. Not physically just emotionally. I feel like I have had the crap beat out of my spirit. I try and say all sorts of positive things, read spiritual material, pray, talk to nice people, write, count my blessings, etc. But I feel like I am failing this test. My husband isn't working again tomorrow. And although he worked Monday, the rest of the week doesn't look good either, because of the weather forecast. I just feel so you know unfaithful...I've been here a thousand times before...pissed off at God because I can't control my situation. My husband's check this week was to go for Christmas. I know, I know keep the faith, this will make you stronger, everything will work out blah blah blah. But I have a huge Mortgage payment due at the end of the month and the rest of the pay checks this month have to go to that.
I do know that I will get through all this...I know that God has always been there to fight my inner demons. But I am just so tired...so tonight I will rest....God will find a way...and everything truly will be alright..
Thanks for listening
you guys truly understand.
<3
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3 comments:
Ah Rose, I'm so sorry you fell for that AOL thing. Many people did so you're not alone. And I'm glad you know you weren't stupid. just tired. We all go through those days when nothing makes sense> We DO stuff, like you said, hon, that's why it feels so crappy. The more we try to do something the more like a failure we feel. We don't have to do a thing, except look beyond what our eyes see, reminding ourselves of the many hard places God rescued us from. We can't control anything. Jesus says, "Without ME, ye can do nothing." So glad you created this journal for yourself. It really helps to share with people who care about you. I'll pray for you and others reading this will too. And things WILL be alright because Faith honors God and HE will honor our faith. Every single time. Big hugs, hon. *Barb*
I'm so sorry. Try to cheer up. It will all work out, I just know it. I'll say a prayer for you. We're here to listen. Any time.
Have a great day.
R.C.
sorry you got taken, but on the bright side all they could get was $9 and now you will have new accounts and not be fooled again! Take care Rose!
~JerseyGirl
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